damnnn sonnnnn i havent written in here .. in a while -- disgusting -- yes i know

ill write later =]

yeahh my life is 49703464789370 timess busier then usualy =0 today i had offfff =) yay! i hung with kristen cuz i love her<3 umm yeahhh i have a pic where i look like a fag.. but thts ok =)

^my mom my g-ma and me at my g-pa`s 85th b day party!!<333

had possibly the worst day..EVER! i hate my life it sucks.... yeahh i have nothing to live for and plus i have no life... yeah this whole week has sucked.. major....

im deff. leavign sewanhaka after this year

im so happy i have one more year left .. its not like anyone wud miss me if i left.. o welll

me life = gay

comment if you care.. i guess

In the light

I seeyour face

But only in

my dreams

yeahh ive had an intresting week<33 yeahh im just gonna sum it up... today i went to the street fair.. had fun<33 umm yeserdayyy thelma made me go to her soccer game so i walekd home after school ended and walked back up 5 mins later<3 ha... she made me bring her one of my juicy juices too.<333 my poor marleny got hurt =*(... feel better babes<33

well heres jsut some old poetry i wrote a while ago..

love

You took my hand…
And said you wanted to be with me forever
My emotions were like a fountain
i was at a loss for words
then with your embrace
all the doubt of being alone
….. vanished
my heart had longed for this for so long…
why wasn't I as happy as I thought I would be?
I  then lifted my head from my pillow and opened my eyes
Because love cant continue as a dream…


Achieving my goal

I dream and fantasize
The fantasies I long to fulfill
To fulfill I must achieve
To achieve I must work hard
In working hard I will make it
To make it I gotta have faith
To have faith I gotta believe
In believing I will find love
To find love I must look far
In looking far I will succeed
In succeeding I will find happiness
Happiness is eternal
Eternalness means forever
And forever is until the end
Until the end means never giving up
Never giving up means I made it
And making it means achieving my goal
Achieving my goal means im done
Im done means the last chapter in my story
The last chapter in my story is finally…
Fulfilled

Nightmare…

Why am I living?
It would be so much easier to die
I'm trapped in a night mare called 'life'
Nothing is ever going right
Everything is always wrong
There's nothing here for me
Nobody needs me
Nobody wants me
Why am I living if I'm going to die anyway?
I think all of this while I'm sitting on my bed with a gun pointed right at my head
There was no stopping now
The last to ever come into my head was:
'pull the trigger and the nightmare stops…'


yeahhh thatss what upppp<333 comment it mannnnnnnnnnnnn

*Lindsayyy <333 youuuu =D